I am very sad now….just sad….And feel down….damn down…
And feel so frustrated…..frustrated…
Really feel like giving up my exam….
Really don’t feel like wanna give a piece of shit bout it….
So sad……can anyone lend me his or her shoulder…? Although I prefer is a he…coz is not good to leave a teeth print on a gal’s shoulder…why shoulder coz it can be covered up by t-shirt….although I prefer a juicy arm….haha….
Haih…just before few hours I don’t really felt that way…still have a little bit of semangat for study….until my dad calls….nothing bad happen laa…is just about that stupid sea swim event loo….haihhh…..
Last Saturday I purposely went back just wanna discuss with him about this thing….coz I really don’t think I’m that fit to swim and I have no stamina and no confidence to swim at all….like I said…I did tell him…but he didn’t say a single word….so I assumed he allow me not to swim….but then I was totally soooo wrong bout it!!
Ya…he called…and bla bla bla bla all those bullshit to me….
What ‘don’t care about the result, just focus on completing it’ la, walao….just give me a reason…just 1 fucking single reason why wouldn’t I go…. I wanna go like hell la plssss…if I got the stamina laa…. I really don’t wanna just go to swim without any stamina and confidence and swim till half have to pull back by a small boat…why just he couldn’t understand that!!!!!!!!???????
I’ve stop for swimming for more than 2 weeks, almost 3 weeks!! And you expect me to swim for 5.4 km in not more than 2 weeks??!! Just what the hell you think I am!!?? Please laa!! I didn’t train for so long time d!! and my 8km result is LAST YEAR thing!! And do you know how long time I’ve spent to train for that?? DEFINITELY NOT 2 WEEKS!!! Just what the helllllllllllllllll!!!!!!!!!!???????
I know my dad wanted me to swim so badly and I myself wanted too…
I know he don’t want me to give up so easily so am I…..
Haih….can anyone…just some one…tell me what to do….?
If I missed it…I think there’ll be a gap between me n my dad…haha….
If I go…. I think I’ll drown myself 1st….and I think I’ll have phobia to swimming…haha…
Haihhhh….shit looo…haven’t finished my study yet and I got no mood to study at all…
God bless me……… =”(
